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Tuesday, December 28, 2004




Spending the Limbo



Belated Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to All.

Well, I just came from the newest cinema here in Davao, the NCCC Mall Cinema and I can say it resembles Robinsons Galleria cinemas. Astig! Notably, this week is the Metro Manila Film Festival week and as usual as part of my annual routine, I will watch which I think are the best entries this year. Yesterday I watched Mano Po: My Love starring Mayor Vilma Santos. As usual, it's full of the drama crap not really that impressed. Mano Po 2, still I think is the best of all the Mano Po films. Today I watched "So Happy Together". Funny films especially with touches of gay theme always make people laugh. The film itself is generally good and I like the story, quite tragic in the end as Eric Quizon dies on his bed, his life and his money, all gone in pursuit of happiness while Kris ends up highly successful. I still have to watch, the all-Visyan film, "Panaghoy sa Suba" and my all-time favorite TV series movie entry, "Okay Ka, Fairy Ko".

Anyway, Christmas has been good so far. The annual MDD Convention is still going on and too bad, I did not register. I'm not really in the mood to join all the activities but decided in the end to attend the major activities.

Monday, December 20, 2004




There's No Place Like Home(?)



Yesteray, I arrived here in Davao. After six months away from home, it's a good feeling to be back at where you grew up. My mom, dad and my sister fetched me at the airport. Inside our vehicle, I talked about my memorable experiences when I worked as a PA (Production Assistant) both at "All About Men" and "Bodyhunt 2004". But nobody seemed to care, my dad only asked what salary I got ... and then lied to him that it was good. Nobody, seemed to care if I enjoyed it or was it hard. No one asked, if I was ok. Nobody did but when my sister shared her share of her stories. They commented about it.

As you can see, I never did relate with anyone in the family especially with my Dad and my Mom. It is with my sister I talk with what I did or sometimes with my brother. My parents don't seem too proud with my achievements in the field of art and music, which are something I love to do and plan to make a career out of them. They have expected me to make use of my ECE licnse, work in a big company, earn big salary and that's it. Yet, I never expected they could be so cold about it when I'm so hot sharing what I've done. Anyone, my Dad made a side comment, that I'd return to Manila, only to get my remaining things. I felt slammed... but it's ok. I'm 23, I think I've grown enough to stand up for myself... no matter what happens, I'll be back in Manila and stay there... so help me God.

To continue with my story, when I got home, it was uneventful. I cooked my own dinner while everyone watched "Kapamilya Christmas Special". After that, my sister was the only one left at the living room, so I poured out to her all my excitement. I showed here my work and what I did. I'm still glad that someone in the family can relate with me. During this week, I will not think of anything else but to enjoy the holidays and deal with my going back to Manila after that.

Wednesday, December 15, 2004




Shopping in Quiapo



I promised my friend Sheela, who's in Davao to buy her a VCD of "Sassy Girl"...never heard of that movie but I think it's a hit Korean flick. So today, I decided to go to the "pirated CDs" capital of the Philippines, Quiapo, Metro Manila. Going there was uneventful, though I decided to travel an alternate route by going off Cainta Junction, then ride a jeep up to MRT 2 and then stop at Recto station, where Quiapo is situated nearby. I saved an hour, if I travel via bus, I think it would take me 2 hours. Anyway, back to the story. After that, I headed straight to the pirated CD nooks. Wait but before that, I decided to enter the famous Quiapo church, where the Feast of the Black Nazarene is held and where the movie, "Santa Santita" was shoot. Well, it was exactly the same like it was shown in the movie. There are those praying ladies at the corner. Well back again, here in Quiapo, is a home of a block of stalls of pirated CDs and DVDs. You can find several kinds of DVDs, like latest movies, concerts, cartoons, animés, "teleseryes", fashion shows. So Mr. Edu, how's the raiding doing? Not really good, eh! So I entered each stall one by one and in the end, I bought a Celine Dion and concert of Bond DVD. Cool! Though, I never found, a VCD copy of "Sassy Girl" but found a DVD copy instead. I texted Sheela and she told me that "wag na lang" and even warned me to secure my DVDs when I go back to Davao. The law officers might confiscate them and I might go to jail... (No!!!) Just when I decided to go home, I passed by a very dark nook, disguised slightly in front by an "ukay-ukay" store. It was a very dark path, leading to more stalls. It was so freaking hot in there and for a while, the place starts to brighten up and I was in a section full of porn CDs and DVDs. COOL!!! Wow, they really secure this place. I was just passing by, ogling at those big-breasted models and I can't bear the heat any longer, so I left the place. It was almost evening when I went back to Recto Station. Well, that was it, my day in Quiapo.

Tuesday, December 14, 2004




Psyching Out...



Just nothing ... these feelings of frustrations, hopelessness and loneliness is pulling me down. Last Sunday, as the night grows deeper, being bummed inside my room makes me quite insane. So I went out, looking for answers. I got to go internet cafe and thrive the chatrooms, looking for a decent soul to talk to... but chatrooms are filled with poor, insecure souls like me and so nothing happens. I got to go to "Select" to eat... but I just realized that food isn't the answer to my loneliness, so I went home... changed. I lay down and uttered a simple prayer... It was a prayer, I decribe was silent, pure and sincere... and prayed for a good sleep, a sleep that would make me feel new tomorrow. God did answered my prayers. It was the best sleep I had in days and I woke up. It was yesterday ... I decided to changed my daily routine. Instead of having breakfast at Ginno's Pares. I rode a jeep to as far as Sta. Lucia Mall to eat at Tropical Hut and have my Ham Meal, which is my favorite. Then followed the usual stuff, spent the day quite as I did before... I'm trying to learn and accept that this was I was like before and is coming back to me now in order to live like before my life became complicated. I wanted to go home but dreaded the fact that I might not return. Gosh, what a life!!!! I'm listening to Launchcast music right now... feeling the Holdiday songs... Merry Christmas!!! Christ has come, Hope has come and that's a lot of reason to be happy than thinking to our woes... God Bless.

Sunday, December 12, 2004




Series of Unfortunate Events



I was half-awake and felt it was like 6 in the morning, when my roommate Butch entered the room, excused to get his pillow under my feet and lay beside. Quite early for him to come home, I think , but then Butch blurted out his terrible, I say terrible cause if it would be me, I'd describe it that way, that happened to him six or more hours ago. I instantly remembered Jim Carrey's poster of his next movie at SM Megamall. It was adapted from Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events. I haven't read the book yet but I have to watch the movie, maybe I'll like it like what Harry Potter did to me.

Series of Unfortunate Events


Anyway back to my original story, exactly 8 hours before that, my boss texted me with an air of sadness saying it would be his birthday tomorrow (well that would be today) and he's broke, poor man and poor me too, cuz he owed me money. So much for series of unfortunate events. Similarly yesterday, another friend Butch S., expressed his woes (or was it pure hatred?) regarding the company he's currently employed. To conclude, sometimes life can bomabard you with series of unfortunate events. Even if it's not directly you who will be affected, somehow they will hit you in some other way. But I think, as what the apostles have taught, the best thing to do is to cheer each other up and to think that this is just a passing phase of life and who knows the odds are against you once more.

Friday, December 10, 2004




Bummed . . .


After several days of not doing anything left me bummed. The day was boring. Last night I got the CDs of our previous show from Metrobar and when I got home, I get to listen to Bond's CD just to kill the time 'till I doze off. My sleep was not good either so I woke up just as lame as ever and with nothing to look forward to makes it lamer. However, I get to sample again Bond's CD and I fell in love with the first three tracks, the ones we used at the modeling show.

Bond
Bond


By the way, Bond is an all-girl quartet of strings - two of them are playing violins and the other two are playing viola and cello. Back to the issue, the cuts we used were entitled, Alegretto, Shine and Fuego. These three are I think the best cuts in Bond's CD, "Shine" and if your memory is sharp, the Bond girls, (imagine sexy in rave outfits) played them during the swimwear round of Miss Universe 2002? (not really sure) What makes their music one of kind is their fusion with tribal and techno beats. Their musical genre is also similar with that of Vanessa Mae (her latest CD is Choreography).

Hmmm... now what? Well okay, as I was listening to Bond's music, memories went back to my high school days of watching Sailormoon. I was daydreaming again, I was watching a scene at the Moon Kingdom with all the sailor warriors dancing in Bond's music. And who could forget the senshi who played the violin, Michiru Kaioh, aka Sailor Neptune?

Sailor Neptune
Michiru Kaioh, aka Sailor Neptune


I can't remember the episode where she played the violin while playing with the apple at the same time (parang tinatakyan niya yung apple). I know it's just cartoons but I'm impressed. Well, I hope that someday, I could make a music video of the Moon Kingdom scene I have in my mind in tune with Bond's music.

Thursday, December 09, 2004




Changes ...


Goodness gracious! Yesterday, after several days of being bummed, I decided to work on my blog. Feeling so sick, I headed to Netopia waiting for inspiration to hit me until it came and the rest they say, is history. Well, guys this my new blog layout ... Andy's Undies V2.0, designed to fit in 800 x 600 screen resolutions as well as for 1024 x 768 resolutions. Unfortunately, several sections are not here anymore like the Kataw-anan section and my account in WhoisCute.com ... have to find those links later. A video stream section is new, currently playing my idol in singing... Josh Groban (video courtesy of Warner Music).

Bodyhunt2004


For the last three weeks, my friend hired me for a project he would handle. It was a modeling search, in it's second year. It's entitled "Bodyhunt 2004". We were only given three weeks to prepare and God, you can't imagine the things we have to do to squeeze all of them in a 3-week frame. First, I was supposed to be my friend's PA but since he discovered "daw" my talent in Photoshop, I was the instant Graphic Artist for the event. I was the one who made the poster (of course, using my friend's concept... see picture), the ticket design, the souvenir program and the widescreen presentation. During the day, I would perform my PA duties like running on errands (both here and for Penis Talks also), taking care for tickets, dealing with other people involved and during the night, I would make the design with my friend's supervision. You can't imagine, how tired I am when I arrive home. I just brush my teeth, and change into my clothes and sleep after a mere 4 to 6 hours, I would wake up again and go to work. I can say that this job is the most humbling job I ever had. Sure, it's tiring, I even cried in frustrations at time, get angry with internet staff but the rewards are great. Seeing your work appreciated by people is priceless. I prayed to God to give me strength and be slow to anger and I'm so glad I did get through somehow.

Tuesday, November 09, 2004



Gurgur in the Morning



Just woke up ... with a crumpled hair, creased clothes and significantly puffy face ... hehehe ... hence the term locally known in Davao as "gurgur" ... Well I have my share of those "gurgur" moments... Here are my pictures with my roommate Butch (kainis dili kaayo siya gurgur...)




Yawn ... yawn ...


The Bunnyguards?


Parang poster ng movie ah ... anong title? Santo Santito :: Mga Pobreng bata


Cute kami ...


Yawn ulit ... I'm going back to sleep again...




Sunday, October 31, 2004



So Far Away



For the past weeks, my mind has been preoccupied with the last days of Earth. Pastor Gerry has been preaching about the last days with great conviction and warning. As I lead on my daily life, waking up and passing by the tabloid stand on my way to Ginno's Pares, news were scattered such us "Anak, Ginahasa ni Lolo", "Gloria, Ipagreresign na!", "Ate, chinop-chop ni Kuya!" or International news about the US Elections, about Oil Price Increase, about Bin Laden threatening America once more... and under my breath I muttered a sigh of relief... God is coming soon. Ironically, when people talk about the book of Revelations, they react with fear and dread as the last days would scare the daylights off them. Unknowingly, some of the signs in Revelations has happened, repeatedly happened or is happening but the latest signs just happened recently. With all the chaos in the world, with US fighting off Iraq, with Palestinians against Israelites along with several nations fighting off each other, is there anyone out there who can bring peace? Fortunately, there is but it will make the smile off your face. It is the Antichrist. Funny, right? Yes, it is the AntiChrist. We thought that Hitler was antichrist or Bush would be the antichrist but if you have been reading the Bible, the antichrist will bring peace to all nations. He is the one man who will make Bush and bin Laden as friends, who will make the Palestinians share hi-5s with the Israelites! At first, I never thought the antichrist as that. I thought he will be one scary, frightening dude, threatening everyone. But as the Bible tells it, the antichrist will make everyone love him, he will make the impossible possible. And who could this antichrist be? We don't know. As Christians (if you really are) we should be happy with the message Revelation brings. It is a message of hope that someday Christ will really come. We are considered fortunate that we Christians have been forewarned of the things to come. If you think now, that the world is out of control with all these events happening around us. You're probably wrong. God is in control. Everything that is happening in this world is according to God's perfect plan. It will squeeze out the Christians juices out of us.

Friday, October 29, 2004



Tales of Sampaguita and Lechon Gravy



Last Wednesday morning, I woke up very early to have my breakfast and to workout. I'm supposed to meet a friend to join him in his show's promo at Magandang Tanghali Bayan : Ang Saya Saya. I woke up at 5, ate breakfast and by 7, I ws already at the gym pumping all my muscles out. Then out of nowhere, a strong scent of fragrant sampaguitas wafted across the sweat-stenched room. My instant reaction brought me to my memory when I was reading Philippine Ghost Stories. A writer mentioned there that when you smelled flowers from nowhere, it is an omen of death. It maybe your death or death to someone close to you. It freaked me out instantly so I immediately checked if someone brought sampaguitas or if someone was using a sampaguita scented perfume but there is none. The peculiar thing is, it seems that no one seems to mind the scent which might be irritating to ones nose. The smell lingered for almost 3 - 5 minutes. And when it was gone, I remembered that my dad will be arriving in Manila that day in a Philippine Airlines flight. So I immediately stopped for a while and prayed for everyone I knew, including my loved ones for protection. I am not superstitious but this time, I am cause I really freaked out. Last week, my roommate also had a freaky paranormal experience. We were riding in an FX, and suddenly someone texted him and asked him if he was riding in an FX, wearing a brown shirt and carrying a red bag. Yes, he did and he texted back and asked her where is she located? Is she riding a bus ahead of us that she saw us at that time? Her reply freaked Butch out of his wits. She told him that she just woke up and the thought suddenly came into her mind. She was really disturbed that's why she texted him. Scary right? Well at almost 11, I was really worried my father hadn't texted me yet. He supposed to arrive at 10:30. Finally the text came saying that he just arrived and is now on his way to Makati Medical Center to have his check-up.

Well, fast forward that day to yesterday. After my exam at Canon Information tech., my friend Monch, texted me that he needs me as his PA (Personal Assistant) for the play "All About Men : Penis Talks", in which he is one of the Production Coordinators. I will be paid 500 for that night. I immediately took a quick dinner, went home, get dressed and went to Music Museum. When I got there, everything was in frenzy and I was asked to bring lechon to the receptionists. After putting all the lechon bits in a paper plate, I immediately looked for the gravy. I find it lying inside a plastic cellophane and I got it and untied the knot. Suddenly I realized that something was dripping on my polo. God! It was the gravy. The plastic has a hole underneath and all the liquid flowed on my polo, down along my pants and into my shoes. The floor was now wet with gravy and some people were starting to stare at me. Fortunately, another PA and a model helped me with the mess. While i went to the CR to clean myself. They cleaned the place too. My work was a PA was so enjoyable and the rest of the evening went fine.

Monday, October 18, 2004



One Ordinary Day



The alarm clock sounded and I was still partly asleep. It was 7:00 am. I looked at my side and noticed that my roommate is not home yet. He usually arrives by 6 or 6:30 am. I turned the alarm off and dozed off for another 30 minutes. I got up, prayed, washed my face and went to Ginno's Pares to have breakfast.

Since Monday is my weight-training day so I ordered eggs. 3 to be exact ... Everytime I go there, there was this crew who always give his silly grin whenever I came. I don't know if he finds me funny but it's not amusing me either. I have this urge to ask him why would he grin everytime I speak to take my order. Whatever the reason is I don't know. I don't like Monday mornings ... whenever I wake up, I see people hurrying here and there, catching up with jeepneys or FXs to go to Ayala or Ortigas... There are late comers too... I know that office hours starts at 8:00 but I see some of them still queuing even if it's past 8 ... If you are one of them ... then change yourself.

Anyway, I went back to my room and washed my gym clothes and after that bought some distilled water. I had difficulty walking today ... I think I have sprained my right foot. It started last week as a negligible pain but now it got worse. Maybe I should let the doctor see it. Anyway, I read Men's health magazine while enteratining to some texts ... mostly from stalkers ... hehehe ... By 11, my roommate came in a very bad mood, mumbling about something and complained that he will have less sleep this time. He still have to go back to work at 8. We talked a little. I turned off the lights. Get my gym things ready and took off to take my lunch. I had my lunch at Chowking ... As usual, I ordered Fish w/ Tausi Large and with Iced Tea ... Nothing happened much ... but I ate my food using Chopsticks ... I'm very glad it's so easy to use it this time ... I've been practicing using it since last week ... I just hope that I could eat using chopsticks as fast as I can.

Before going to the gym, I bought a Sundae Cone at McDonalds then proceeded to the Gym. I was using the treadmill and found out that my feet really hurts. I went to my usual Back, Shoulders, Biceps routine and at 2 pm, I went back to my room. I stopped by at a nearby grocery store to by Moo ... Men's Health mag says you should drink a high-carb, hi-protein drink after a workout to replenish your energy. Anyway, when i got there, i was very sleepy and quickly dozed off. At 4;30 i woke up and noticed roomie was still there. He is supposed to wake up at 4:00 to prepare for his work but I suppose he must be really tired. I quietly got up, took a bath, get dressed and went to Megamall for my check-up. I rode an FX ... and the music that greeted me was Tuesday Vargas' "Huwag Po, Huwag Po..." .... it was funny and it lifted my spirits somehow ... nakaka-LSS. When i got there at SM, it was 5;30 pm. I had my early dinner before check up. The check up was finished at 7:40 pm ... and I decided to go home ... my feet really hurts like hell. I passed by Galleria first and browsed some magazines ... but I became hungry so I ate again. At almost 9, I rode a bus and went home ... And so here I am, in this internet cafe, just below our gym and a few blocks from my room writing this story for you.

Ordinary days may be boring but hey it's a day ... and everyday is a sort of an unexplored adventure...

Tuesday, October 05, 2004


Wind versus Legolas


It's worth noting here, to great heroes in two great, both award winning movies. While Tang Dynasty, has captain Jin (Takashi Kaneshiro) who calls himself the wind, Middle Earth, also has Legolas (Orlando Bloom). Both were great but let's see what their perks and downs are:

Wind


Legolas

Perks Perks
1. Has a cool two cool battle gears
2. Has a cool sword
3. Excellent martial skils
4. Sharp vision
5. Playboy (often surrounded by women)
6. Had a girlfriend

1. Has a nice costume
2. Endless supply of arrows
3. Sharp vison
4. Excellent maneuvering skills
5. Long, soft hair (hahaha!)
6. Speaks a fictional language
7. Immortal

Downs Downs

1. Tangled Hair
2. Mortal
3. Limited supply of arrows
4. Too emotional

1. Doesn't know any martial arts
2. Doesn't have a girlfriend
3. Does not take a bath
4. Does not change clothes



The House of Flying Daggers



Mei, impressing the captain with her skill in the Echo Play


It's Tuesday again, another day of waiting ... waiting for a call I'm not really certain that would ever come but the best way to kill the time waiting is to do something else, right? Yesterday, I've learned that the House of Flying Daggers will be shown today so after my daily routine, I decided to watch the movie at Megamall.

The movie opened with the trademark chinese caligraphy and so the story. Watching this movie reminds me of "Hero" since both movies, this one and Hero are both produced and directed by award-winning director Zhang Yimou but this one has a different touch, with more to "real" fighting scenes, and a much inclination to a love story. Again, in this movie, Yimou, expresses his artistry through the costumes, the more-to-very-gritty-yet-artistically done scenes like a sword cutting a drop of water, and of course the very nifty fighting whatever martial arts of the Chinese. Surely it will take your breath away.

To give you a brief overview, this movie is a love story set in a crucial period where the Tang Dynasty will soon end. With a government run by corrupt people (like the Philippines), a new band of rebels, who called themselves "The House of Flying Daggers" plan to outthrow the government. With a cunning plot to lure the Chinese army into their trap, the rebel group uses Mei (Zhang Ziyi) to pursue this mission. Hoever the plan complicates as Mei fell in love with her playboy captor, the Chinese captain, Jin aka "Wind". In the end of the story, a fascinating twist happens that all ends in tragedy. I cried a tear actually.

Sunday, October 03, 2004



Fahrenheit 9/11



Do you think that Bush is the good guy and Saddam and Osama are the most evil guys? Not what Patrick Moore has presented in his aard-winning film, Fahrenheit 9/11. Plots and conspiracies, and scandals behind Bush's corporations are exposed in bright light in this thought-provoking, humorous film. Do you know that the Bushs and BinLadens are corporate friends? America is all too blind about this. And would you think that the Iraq war is justified? Do you look at the possibility that behind the reason that Iraq is harboring nuclear, biochemical weapons under Saddam is the real reason why Bush attacked Iraq? Think of the hundreds of lives of soldiers Americans and Iraqis alike all wasted just for nothing. Most of all, it was very disturbing to see Iraqi civilians crying for Allah as their homes are wrecked and their loved ones all dead. Do you think the some Iraqi groups behead people for no reason at all? Who are the real terrorists? Find out who started it. After watching this movie, may be it'll change your mind. So watch Fahrenheit 9/11.

Saturday, October 02, 2004

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Looking for Something for Nothing


It all started when I checked my ATM account and found out that my dad added a few bucks in there. Happy as I am, I went to the my usual Saturday strolling at Megamall to buy myself something new. I was thinking of a new polo... Yesterday was the first day of sale at Ever Gotesco Ortigas and I really like the blue striped polo for sale at Bench. Since I do not have much money left, I decided not to buy it even though Butch insisted that he would lend me money if I want to. Now, I was thinking that I could find a similar polo at Bench Megamall.

After lunch, something came and instead I was itching for a new Christmas CD. Last Sunday, I bought this Christmas musical called "Everlasting Light", it was good but I was really disappointed since the musical style was so 80's and the voices of the choir was quite ordinary and the soloists' voices were a bit old-fashioned. Though, I loved one song in there and it's called "Little Yeshua" . It's a song of Joseph for his earthly son Jesus. Wish, I could sing that song someday at a musical.
Anyway, so after lunch, I decided to go at Praise Music Main Branch at Panay Avenue (near ABS-CBN). When I got there I couldn't find a CD that will suit my taste. I was looking for the CD wish contained an african feel of "Sing Noel" and "Go, Tell It On The Mountain" but the saleslady said that they didn't have the CD. Quite frustrated, I went back to Megamall to resume reading "Rich Dad, Poor Dad". After reading and it was like 5:05 in the afternoon, I decided to look for that polo design at Bench. Well, there were polos on sale but that design was not there. Instead, I took my dinner. After dinner, I visited Levi's, Penshoppe but the polos did not suit my taste. Well, there are those nifty ones at Arrow but Hello! They cost 4000 a piece!!! So my interest wavered so I decided to go home.

I took the route via Podium and when I got there, I decided to roam around. Arrow has polos for sale and they cost 600-800 only, so I decided to try some but unfortunately the sizes were bigger than me. Mostly were L or XL or XXL, I never realized that my body would shrink so much that I would fit in an M size already. Which is flattering .. hehehe...

When I went back downstairs, I came across with the San Miguel Master Chorale practicing for their show later. When I came in, I was really irritated with their rendition of "The Circle of Life"... with those voice-stimulated sounds to mimic the sounds of animals in the jungle that overpowered the voice of the soloist. Anyway, everything changed cause I fouund out that they are selling CDs. Without hesitation, I bought one (which only costs 280) and stayed for the show. The show turned out very good, I would have given them a 30-second standing ovation. I was feeling very nostalgic remembering our concert with the Himig Singers exactly a year ago three days from now. So I texted Maria Lyn (who will be heading to Canada rhis Monday with the group) about the concert. I finally get to see the likes of Eudy Palaruan (who conducts the group) whose name I came across with the pieces we sang at Himig and of course the Philippine's David Foster, Ryan Cayabyab who composed and arranged all the songs in the CD. Well anyway, after the show, I mustered all the guts in me and went to the stage and have Mr. C sign my CD. Well he did! He asked my name and he put a short message on the CD cover.

Well, this is not a bad day after all. I got what I wanted a CD with good singers in it and by the way, the polo will come later. Maybe it's not the time yet. :)

Friday, October 01, 2004

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How Evil Are You?



To take the test copy this and paste it to the URL field of your browser:
http://www.hilowitz.com/john/test/evil.php or click here.

The Results:

You are 25% Evil



You try to stay away from evil deeds but succumb to temptation every once in a while. You aren't quite on your way to hell but you certainly have some explaining to do.


Wednesday, September 29, 2004

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An "Evil" Day



My feet were itching from bites by mosquitoes hovering under the lavatory while washing my clothes I wore at the gym. I put some "Off" lotion and I guess the biting was gone. Anyway, exactly an hour and a half ago, I watched the ass-kicking, butt-busting sequel to Resident Evil which is Resident Evil:Apocalypse. The story continues from the previous movie where the virus has spread throughout the entire Raccoon City. Alice (Mila Jovovich) awakes from slumber with astonishing superhuman powers, and finds herself doing awesome combat techniques against zombie-like, virus-infested people (and dogs) all over the city. Yeah! She's really cool doing a Terminator thing with guns in both of her hands. Alice has become one of my favorite action heroes! Did you know that Mila trained for four months to prepare for this role? She has learned the intense Brazilian combat technique and the "in" thing nowadays replacing Tang Soo Do which is "Capoeira". And I'm sure it did prepare her for this movie. If you like Alice, you'd also like Jill Valentine, the heroine in the Resident Evil Game played by Sienna Guillory, and I thought she was Lara Flynn-Boyle with that anorexic body of hers but anyway, this babe really is equally ass-kicking and butt-busting but with only nearly human powers unlike Alice. Anyway, Umbrella (the organization who operated the Hive) had planned to "sanitized" the whole city by using a nuclear weapon and it's up to Alice, Jill, and their allies to fight for their survival against the threat from Umbrella and from the "infected" ones.

If you want some adrenaline-rushing, less mind thinking and full of shocking, heart-attack inducing movie to watch these days then I recommend you this. It'll never disappoint you.

But have you wondered why it's called an "Evil" day? It's not because of Resident Evil. Prior to that, I had my facial check-up at "Let's Face It". The "facial expert" who does the pricking and let's name her "Sleeping Beauty" has done the entire pricking in less than 10 minutes! In fairness she was nice like a saleslady, but I was really disappointed with the less than 10 minutes pricking and take note without much effort. I'd rather cry from pain if it's worth it! In my disappointment, I decided to cancel the mask I had arranged with her earlier but she has already mixed it so I did not argue anymore. And again, she irked me this time, she was too careless that her sleeves were brushing the mask away as she moved her hands across my face. So after the mask, I decided to report this incident to the supervisor and I did. The supervisor apologized and told me that she would deal with "Sleeping Beauty" later on. I hope, she has to learn a lesson the hard way. It's a good thing I'm a frequent client. What if it happens to a new customer? She/He probably would never come back.

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

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Reading "After Eden"



Butch, my roommate often tell me how hilarious "After Eden" is. I have been into Powerbooks many times but the comic novel by Arnold Arre did not interest me quite a bit until today. Being tired of reading "Rich Dad, Poor Dad", I was looking for some reading material that would tickle my funny bone, so I came across with "After Eden". Although I found Arre's drawing "too cramped", the story was so good and I suggest that you should read it too. It's a story mixed with mild humor, drama, and cheesy-romantic scenes as well as profusive language. It made me laugh too loud and somehow makes me cry. Anyway to give you an overview, "After Eden" is a symbolic phase in what happens to a relationship when the lovers "fall out love" - the term is, Eden, the place where the first man-woman love story began and what happened after they are banished, termed otherwise when the love story ended, according to the author. The story tells of two old childhood friends Celine and Jon, who, after 21 years, met during those "loneliest" times of their lives and found solace into each other. However, as their relationship blossomed, their relationships with their respective friends start to fall apart. Lea, and Gregg who are close friends of Celine and Jon respectively have formulated a mischievious plot to break the two apart - to have them realized that "love" is just an illusion, an escape from reality, an addictive drug to cure temporarily the loneliness inside of us. Sooner, the planned work perfectly but instead of building the relationship back, everyone was in despair. Jon's shop filed for bankruptcy, Celine resigned from her ad agency, friends do not talk and go on with each other's lives. However good and bad destiny personified by the cops, who represented "evil" and the cupid ladies who personified "good" battled each other to get the two back again or separate both forever. The ending is for you to find out. "After Eden" is like an animé styled comic novel sold for 315 pesos all over National Bookstores and Powerbooks in GMA area.

Friday, September 24, 2004

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A Couple of Interviews, An Exam, A Job Offer



I'm so glad today is Friday because tomorrow is Saturday and the day after Saturday is Sunday. Starting last Monday, I was constantly reminded or rather advised by my father regarding my job application at Pacific Online. I have called May, the patient lady from HR, twice already starting last week. If I make a call to her again, that would make her furious but to my surprise on Tuesday afternoon, she called me to confirm my availability for an exam this Friday. Of course I said yes, and my dilemma was solved.

Minutes after that, someone called me again and it was Ram, the HR guy in Astec. For everyone's information, Tuesday last week, I was invited for an exam and initial interview afterwhich I was told to wait for their call. Well, Ram told me to come into their office tomorrow for an exam again and interview at 10 AM . Waking up 5:30, I get dressed and prepare the 4-hour travel to EPZA in Rosario, Cavite. At 9:00, I arrived at Gate 4 but the guard refused to let me in because applicants should are supposed to enter Gate 1... It was a hassle really, I have to make a circular route around the place which consists of two rides. I got there by 9:20. Anyway, the exam was unusual ... the instruction was follow the instructions. Anyway, I got 10/14, which I think was quite good. I waited for a very long time for the interview, too many people interviewed me and it was finished at 4:30 PM. After that I waited for the HR's instruction for an hour, only to be told that I can go home and wait for their call. Duh! Anyway, while I was on my home particularly in Bacoor, Ram called me and told me to come for the final interview tomorrow that day at 8:00. What!? 8? Taht is too early! Anyway, I said yes. I was really planning to sleep that night until the sunlight will make me up. I was really tired when I got in Pasig at 8:00 PM so I decided to lift weights in the gym and it felt really good! I went home, took a bath, set the alarm clock at 4:00 AM and went to sleep.

I arrived 10 minutes late at Astec but it was okay. Ram called me and do his interview thing, psyching me. Duh! I'm used to be being psyched, he should've known I've been psyching myself every moment in my life. (Mahilig kasi ako magmumuni-muni)... so I think I was calm during the process yet noticed beads of sweat have formed around my forehead. Hehehe ... Anyway, I was instrcuted to wait again I don't know for how long again for my interview with the "Biggest Boss". To kill the time waiting, it's a good thing a fellow applicant started a conversation with me and we really got absorbed into each other's topics that I haven't noticed I was called to be interviewed. The biggest boss was the most intimidating interviewer ... maybe he's doing it to flaunt his authority. Duh! Anyway, I waited at the HR again for the results. My fellow applicant and I continued talking until it was his turn to be intrviewed. Around 11:15, Ram called each of us individually. I was called last. He told me that I was hired and advised me to look for a room or a house near EPZA. They will call me next week. I was hired! Yet, I did not feel estatic about it. Quite ironic really... I was too tired, my eyes were stinging and I went home looking forward for my exam tomorrow ... which happened today.

To be continued...



Tuesday, September 14, 2004

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Lost! and Almost



Yesterday was the most frenzied day of my life. At lunch, I went to Ever Gotesco Ortigas, the mall near my place to eat my lunch. I was going to eat at McDonalds but when I passed by Greenwich, I decided to eat there instead. I thought it's been a while that I've tasted Chicken ala King. So I ate there, I texted my father what time will he be coming over in Manila. After eating, I went to McDonalds to buy Sundae, then I proceeded downstairs and go to the gym. As soon as I got to the front door, I realized that my cellphone is not in my pocket. Hurriedly, I went back to Greenwich and approached the guy who cleaned my mess and asked me if he has seen any N2100 cell... He said he did not. He searched the trash bin but couldn't find it so I asked him if he has his own cellphone and that I could borrow it to miss call my phone. Instead he called his manager and let him deal with me so I asked the manager if he could give my phone a ring. He did but it said, "The phone is either out of reach or out of coverage area"... he did it again same answer. The verdict: Someone got my phone ... removed the SIM card and I'm sure it will never be returned... Bless him ... It's been barely 10 minutes when I left Greenwich and the most bizaare thing is .. it's not really crowded in there. We were only less than 10 people and very far apart from each other. The closest person I suspected was the guy who cleaned my mess... I don't know... but whoever got my cellphone, God will deal with his life. Well anyway, now I've got a new phone. It's a good thing really my dad came over yesterday, and it's good thing I kept the numbers in my Spiderman notebook that I had contacted him.]

Today, I went to Astec in Rosario, Cavite for an exam and interview. The factory reminded me of ROHM Apollo (for ROHM Apollo stories click here), however it's obvious that it's quite old unlike the brand new, high-tech building of ROHM Apollo. The exam went quite well and I was very bored waiting for my turn to be interviewed. It turned out I was 3rd to the last. But it went well, and it's obvious that the supervisor or manager who interviewed me was impressed with my answers... (Naks! Bukhad ang atay...) and he told me directly I was one of his shortlisted candidates (it turned out na dalawa lang kami)... so apart from interview, he had me tested with my AutoCAD and Visual Basic skills. U-oh! Danger... anyway, I kept my cool and focused everything I learned from Sir George Tujan... It's a good thing the AutoCAD software they had is not working so I got to be tested in VB. What they asked me to do first is very difficult. They want me to make a VB interface to be linked with a database which is in Microsoft Access... Although I made a program like that before, but then, I have books and notes at that time... so I told them I can't do it. Instead they asked me to make a calculator ... very easy. Anyway, I got with the hurly-burly of what commands to use ... I need a refresher! That's what's going on in my head... I haven't finished making the calculator ... Sir whatever his name is, ushered me back to HR, where I was advised to wait for the call.

Saturday, September 11, 2004

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In One Month



Last September 1 was the 3rd monthsary of my stay here in Manila. So what has haappened so far to your dear bloggie. Well, he has rejected two job offers already in the hope of getting the job in Cebu, which unfortunately froze its hiring until December .. well, all I can say God's plans are mysterious in ways humans just can't imagine or comprehend.
Anyway, starting last week, SM Megamall hosts a variety of Europe's best films for FREE... so why not make use of it. The best things in this world are free. Anyway, the event's called "Cinema Europa" and scheduled different films from UK, Portugal, France, Germany, etc in among 2:00, 4:30, 7:00 and 9:30 times slots.

Last Wednesday, I was looking forward to see a film from France called "Les Choristes", in English, "The Choir". So after having my dinner some time in 8:30, I proceeded to Mega A, 3rd floor. When I got there, several people lined up already so I looked for the end of the line and found myself, two cinemas away. More people came until the whole cinema hall was filled with a snakelike line (parang snake sa Nokia) ... By 9:00 the guards let us enter the cinema...

"Les Choristes", is a simple, yet touching story that tells us how music can change the life of a person. Pierre Morhange is a well-renowned musical composer of his time when he got a call from France that prompted him to back there since his mother died. After the funeral, an old man knocked on his door and introduced himself as Pepinot. It took him for a while to remember him, afterwhich he recognized him as his very little classmate at Fond L'etang, were they used to go to school. While they talked, they reminisced the their old times at Fond L'etang and of course the teacher who changed their lives. Pepinot drew out a diary meant for Pierre. It was the teacher's diary. Clement Matthieu's.

Clement Mathieu arrived at Fond L'etang just to answer the call of his teaching services. When he arrived there, he came upon a small boy by the gate. Asking him why he was there, the boy said that he was waiting for his parents to come on Saturday. The boy was Pepinot. As Clement had known later, he was in a state of denial believing that his parents would take him someday on Saturday but in reality his parents are already dead. Since it's not Saturday yet, Clement took the boy with him. Clement was greeted by a huge culture shock and it took quite a little while for him that he is indeed in a school of juvenile delinquent boys, who set dangerous pranks upon their teachers. To retaliate against their behavior, the principal, Monsieur Rachin, developed his radical method of disciplining the students, called as "Action-Reaction". It's like what you saw is what you reap.

Anyway, Clement Matthieu couldn't just subdue the boys' behavior ... so if you can't beat them, join them (in a subtle manner)... Apart from being rowdy all the time, he observed that the boys love to sing and compose really nasty lyrics about their teachers. So being a retired composer himself he experimented on teaching the students to sing as a choir... Morhange was a boy who tried to be tough by being delinquent. In fact he's just a lonely boy who misses his mother dearly and pretended to hate her so much. When the choir started practicing he couldn't join since he had detentions to do. However, when the practice was over, he would rehearse by himself what he just heard... and he's got a very pure voice, very awesome voice. Anyway, Clement caught him singing by himself one time and asked him to join them after his detention... he just shrugged. Meanwhile, Clement fell in love with Pierre's mother. Pierre's mother has been frequently visiting him but couldn't find the right time to talk to him since he was in detention so it was Clement who entertained her more often ... telling her how good her son is and so y'know the drill. When, finally Pierre get to talk to his mother, he felt safe and followed her advice to join Clement's choir. And so the choir practiced more and they sound very beautifully... all was quite well in Fond L'etang even Rachin noticed it... until Modain came. He was a student from almost pyschotic school for boys, and was recommended to Fond L'etang for his improved behavior. This guy was threatening everybody, even the little Pepinot. He was put into punishments more often until he was accused of stealing the school's money that he was sent back to his old school. Meanwhile, Morhange became suspicious of Clement's behavior towards his mother that he back again to his bad boy behavior and refused to sing his solo in the choir. Clement Matthieu took notice of this and told him that he's not to sing anymore. Morhange was hurt since he did not really intend to go that far. Anyway, the school's benefactor heard of the choir and requested them to sing when she visits there. All were assembled and Clement start to conduct. Pierre was standing on one corner. His eyes full of longing to be in there. However when his solo part came, Mattieu turned toward his direction and conducted his solo for him. Pierre was happy and so bati na sila. One hot summer day, Clement noticed that the boys are restless. And while Rachin was off to central Lyon, he decided to bring the boys in the woods to play and explore. When they came back, they found out that the boy classrooms are burning. Rachin was frantic when he got a call to go back since parents have come, screaming. However, Clement came out from the woods with the boys and with their utility man, Maxence from their stroll. All sighed a cry of relief, knowing that the children are safe. However Rachin was so angry and he fired Clement and that he was not allowed to talk to the boys when he leaves. Clement left the school, however out from the window, the boys sent their letters by improvising it into a paper plane, thanking him for all that he's done to them. At a distance, when Clement was about to board a bus, Pepinot came running after him, asking him to take him with him. Clement shooed him away but Pepinot did not move. However, Clement took pity and he got on with Pepinot with him... and by the way, Pepinot's wish came true... that day was Saturday.

Later on as narrated, Pierre's mother enrolled him into a musical school in Lyon. Rachin was fired upon testimonies of the teachers of his radical disciplinary methods. Pepinot grew up with Clement Mattieu. Clement continues to teach music for ordinary people. Before I forgot, it was Modain who burned the school.

Sunday, September 05, 2004

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Heart of Worship



Here I stand, outside your sanctuary
I came with a heart, wounded, tired and weary
With a heavy spirit, I burst out a song for you
And the music played outside ...
For your word said to give thanks in good or bad times
So I opened my mouth and start to sing
Of words not enough for what you've done
Of your loving mercy and grace ...
I closed my eyes and thought of you
Even when things are rough, I can see you through
Hope springs from my lonely heart
And filled my heart with gladness and joy
My soul is yearning and I lift up my hands...
Oh, what a sweet sweet surrender, only thinking about you
Declaring who you are and of your immeasurable greatness
Tears stream from my eyes and felt you wiped them away...
How I wish I could go on forever this way
And in this world, I'm biding my time...
Until you come back someday ...
And repeat this moment far greater and forevermore.

Sunday, August 29, 2004

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Wannna be a Superstar?



Yesterday and today, I watched MTV's eliminations for their new show (I think it's a reality TV show), "Supahstar, The Supahstar Search". The contest has traveled to three of the key cities here in the Philippines: in Baguio, Cebu and in Davao. The judges picked 10 contestants in those cities and their last stop is here in Metro Manila where they'll be choosing 20 contestants for the show ... The judges by the way were Andrew E, Rhada and Tim Yap.

SM Mega A atrium is filled with superstar wannabes with different gimicks to offer ... from their packaging, voice sytlistics ... but of course only a few got the X-factor and the superstar appeal. The elimination was patterned from American Idol where contestants get to sing in front of the judges and the judges will comment on the way you dress, the way you perform, the way you project your voice, voice quality, if you were off-note... yeah something like that ... Well, the contest itself is very entertaining ... there were contestants na who were really determined ... even singing their original pieces ... yeah and there were some who just joined because they thought it would be just for fun ... and there are those who are really just gutsy ... like William Hung.

The contestants who really impressed me are the Rappers and Hip-hoppers ... Truthfully I was really biased with that genre of music often times. How come people appreciate a kind of music of mumbling words so fast, sometimes with illicit lyrics, and most of the time you really don't understand... but in that contest, I learned that Hip-Hop is not just a music genre, it's a lifestyle of how people live their life in a particular place ... there's a Hip-Hop subculture in Bronx, and there's a hiphop subculture in LA, and even in Germany ... I really learned new things from Andrew E. , the Hiphop contestants (who seemed like they adopted the American Hip-Hop influence)and Cindy Kurleto who is a Hip-Hop fan... so I guess I have respect now in terms of HipHop... still not my music preference pero di ko na siya dinedespise.

But I think what amuses me is my ability to sense which contestant will be chosen... like I already knew what they're looking for. Most of the time the judges' picks are also my picks ... maybe I could be a judge someday ... Oh, yeah before I forgot ... well in the first day, MTV VJ Mark was on cam in the show and he was interviewing some people who were watching, I was too busy watching that I didn't realized he came over me and started asking questions ... I was really conscious of myself ... but I answered all his question quite good ... So! Watch for my scoop in Wednesday, 7:00 PM and see if they will be airing that interview with me.

Saturday, August 14, 2004

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One Voice - Revisited



I recently purchased the "One Voice" CD - which is an Easter presentation by the church I'm attending in Makati and watched it in an internet café near my place... Again, I can say that I'm moved again by the presentation and how I wish that my church-mates in Davao can also see it... I'm thinking of sending them a copy. For "One Voice" synopsis, look in 4/01/2004 - 4/30/2004 archive...


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Saturday, August 07, 2004

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#56 Cutest Being on Earth



Hello people... Just for fun, I posted my picture in WhoisCute.com for everyone to rate my "cuteness". :) Naks! and as to date, my picture brought into the Top 100 and I ranked #56. Nakakatuwa... so if you want to vote for ME, well click here na lang... kung gusto niyo lang... I wont force you.

Thursday, August 05, 2004

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A New Day Has Come



Makikisingit muna ... mga Greetings!
First of all to my brother Aris ... Happy Birthday! Maayo ka pa giahtagan ug 1T ni tatay.
Secondly to my friend Mayang who is currently in Munichen(Munich),Germany together with the HIMIG singers! For everybody's information, the HIMIG singers won first place in their first choral competition there in Germany! Congratulations sa kanila! They'll be going to other European countries after that to compete in other choral festivals. Let's just pray that they will sweep all the first prizes in all choral festivals they'll be competing and bring our country on the map...
Thridly to Kevin whose blog currently ranks #8 in Xanga's top 50 blogs... Hope maka-reach ka ug number 1.

Okay to the main event...

Yesterday I made a pact with a friend. We promised to change our "evil" ways and change for the better.

Well, what happened to me since I moved into our new room has been quite a drastic change. First of all, I became sick again... maybe because I was what you call this? "Nasubawan?", sorry for not knowing the English term... - well I could accurately describe what I have dealt with. My rhinitis was constant for almost a week. Most of the time, my nasal passageway was clogged with mucus and my nasal polyps are very much inflammed. During nights, coughing develops and I could hardly get enough sleep. But I thank now, all of these are gone now... and the house problems too... I repeatedly reminded our landlady to fix our roof and replace the burned out electrical outlet. The electrical outlet was burned due to a short circuit since water from the roof seeped into it... Well, those days came - a repairman and an electricial came and thank God that I don't have to re-arrange our sleeping area whenever rain comes...
I recently signed up in a local gym near our house ... well to lose weight. I was gaining a lot of weight nowadays due to the fact that I have been eating pizzas, pasta, ice cream and so on... I also take a weight loss supplement to speed it up. As to date I lost 6 lbs already, and that was quite a mere 2 weeks only of regular exercise - and I did check my diet too. I ate a lot of high protein foods like fish (tuna, salmon, bangus & ble marlin) and eggs... and they taste quite bland now ...nakakasawa. Maybe I should try to find another high protein food source.

Well and what about the first sentence in the first paragraph? What was that suppose to mean? Well, it's too personal to share but I tell you it is a good thing to start like having a new life again. I have never felt more peaceful in my life even though I don't have a job and I get to argue with people nowadays. Yesterday, I almost ended up in a heated conversation with an American (pirting English-English gyud!) until my friend pulled me out of the scene. Well, later on in the process I just found out that I have been frustrated with my life, why things seem to be unfair and why people take advantage of you (although they do it unconsciously) and maybe those are the reasons why I have been very moody, easy to flare up lately... Hmmm, I guess all is solved up and what remained in me is a hope to live and do my purpose of living... I have to find it out yet.

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

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Moving and Tiring


I forgot how many days have passed... felt like weeks already. Oh, well I guess, it's only one and a half weeks since I've written here in the blog. So what's new in Andy's life? Well ... guess what? FRIENDSTER! I am somewhat addicted to this new hype of meeting people (not nearly as friends), answering surveys from bulletin posts. Actually, Friendster does some good despite draining your wallet from your allowance. It makes you good in correspondence, meet difference kinds of people and who knows? Find your soulmate ... what a bash!

Last Sunday, Butch and I went ventured in Kapitolyo, Pasig near Ortigas to look for a new house. After hours of walking, and being drenched in the rain, we haven't finf any. We found a room that costs 5000 and it's sooooo tiny ... insulting my size... it's clean though with squashy beds and a cool CR. It's actually a good place, very comfy yet very tiny... so it's an X-mark!!! Well, as walked inside Brgy. Kapitolyo, we saw a poster "Room For Rent: #15 San Roque Street, Kapitolyo, Pasig City" and as we passed each corner, we would find a similar ad. I thought, "Wow! This room is well advertised. This must be a good house!" So as we entered San Roque street, we were greeted with elegant houses which remind me of Ladislawa Village. I was impressed and out of nowhere, a shabby sloping area like a squatters' area, materialized in front of us. This couldn't be it until Butch exclaimed it's #15. X-mark!!! without an explanation.

The following day I looked for another house and after two hours, I found one... and that's the one I'm having problems with. It's too crammy, too hot and rain drips from the ceiling. Need I say more? And we have to consume two months to live in there... oh, what a life!

Well, just brace for the next episode.


Saturday, July 10, 2004

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Unplanned Things



Well, I'm back in Manila and many things start to cram my head like finding a new house and a new job or joining in a gym to lose weight or to buy pamapayat... Speaking of being fat, if you're fat you're in a big risk for heart attack, high-blood pressure, and all of those fat-related diseases. Just a while ago, particularly last morning, Butch told me that I snored TOO loud last while sleeping last night... I was surprised by that comment ... hmmm, I SHOULD consider losing weight more seriously. Anyway, today was a week of unplanned things because things which were originally planned are not done and things which are not supposed to happen are done and they are better than those planned. Hmmm... last Thursday and yesterday, I stayed with Butch at his mom's posh room at Pan Pacific in Malate ... It was an exhilirating experience especially the food ... I said yo myself that I really had ENOUGH of food ... and this thinking would help me to lose weight more easily.
We targetted a house in Makati for several days but our plans were not pushed through since we woke up very late and are tired walking with the sun baking (or burning rather) our skins. Anyway, I'm still in the process of looking for a job. I have my new resumé ready and a set of my 2 x 2 pictures. I'm hoping that the bosses in an establishment will respond to my application...
Well, ciao :>


Monday, July 05, 2004

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Hideous!



The night before I departed back to Manila, my sister finally made me watch "The Call", our local church presentation last Christmas. I looked forward seeing my performance as singer and whether I'd make it as a singing pop star (char mo chak!). Well after the 2nd song in the repertoire, I waited intently at the third song which is my solo. I hid my face with a pillow, I don't want to see what I look like. However, voice-wise, I was really satistfied with my voice. My months with the HIMIG surely did pay off... I was really good with the low, baritonish notes ... I removed the pillow from my face and woah!!!!! The biggest man in Earth is right in front of my face ... I was several pounds bigger on screen and remembered correctly that I really looked skinny even during Christmas... and so I think of myself maybe real singers are too skinny in personal since they looked okay in TV... Guess I have many pounds to lose. And so back to the story, the part came when a choir is supposedly to sing the part in which, however our musical director made me do it solo since we don't have a decent choir to do it. It was so obvious in the video that I was straining, my voice really quavered and uneven ... it was totally disastrous. If Jimmy Santos was there holding his gong, then it would have sounded... However many people still think I did great... anyway, the botttom point is, I make poeple entertained, right? Okay ... so let's proceed. The next song I sang was a duet. It was more relaxed and I guess it's the best performance of all my songs in there... And then finalé came. Waah!!!! I really regret the ad-lib gestures I did ... the facial expressions are soooo fake and even the hand movements seemed restrained and I was soooo big. Well, I can't do about it, can I? It's me in there and I can't change that. Well, watching the video ... I realized that "marami pa akong kakaining bigas". Truly, I realized the hardships Sarah G. or Eric Santos went through to be in the place where they're at right now... oh well, life goes on for Andy.

Sunday, July 04, 2004

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Two Weeks in Davao



I've been feeling sick when I arrived in Davao. I still have the after effects of yesterday's Colds and Fever. Nevertheless, my first breathe of Davao air took my breath away. I'm home again. My nanay and tatay, fetched me at the airport. I was telling them about my resignation and what other prospect jobs I'll be applying. We stopped at Sta. Farmacy in Cartir Square to buy ingredients for Spaghetti. I missed nanay's spaghetti. When we arrived home my sister greeted me, "Taba-a na nimo uy!!!!". Well, I was physically challanged, my stay in Manila made me overbloated that I was afraid to be obese again...
Anyway, tomorrow that day, I visited good old Ateneo Davao to claim my yearbook. The Kalasag staff told me that the yearbook will be due this October pa!!! Ang tagal naman! It's been 2 and a half years... Anyway I visited Choes after that and we talked about our classmates applying in ATO and stuff.
Two weeks came in a breeze, I devoted most of my time, working out Superbodies with the manongs in there. I was pumping again iron using my favorite "Circuit Routine". I also frequented Port Café at Gaisano Mall to eat Grilled Malasugue. Ah, I was recalling one meal, good old days are back again. I also met with Mayang, who needed help with her HIMIG concerns. I also bought many pirated DVDs, most of them concerts like "Children's day" by McDonalds featuring Celine Dion. Josh Groban, David Foster and the like...
Two weeks are over and before I go, my family led by my tatay, blessed me with a prayer ... all I can say that I'd be forever grateful to God for giving me such wonderful parents.
I'm back in Manila... and I'm glad I'm more inspired than ever.

Sunday, June 27, 2004

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A Break



Finally, I get to have a break from my job. I think I have a serios illness that's why I have to quit as soon as possoble. I resigned from my job but I think the more appropriate term is AWOL. I'd rather invest my money on my medication than pay the training bond. Do you understand me? I'm sure you'll do the same thing too if you were in my shoes. I'm glad, I'm back here in my hometown. It's good to be back home - where life is simpler and the air is cleaner.

Thursday, June 10, 2004

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Everyday is a different day



Well, I'm still sulking in here regarding my ill-fated situation. However, there's no use dreading everyday thinking about you job, right? So I guess I just gloss over the entire eight hours like a machine without any feelings. Maybe, that's one of the factors too, I become too emotionally involve especially when dealing with people, I want to please people everytime but in your job, you can't please anyone especially the clients. "Duh, pakialam nako kung guba ilang router!" Sometimes people demand so much na it's too much na talaga and you start to cower yourself or fight back ... Stop, think and wait a minute, is it love that I really feel? Look, I'm really out of my senses. Right now, I'm looking for a new job - a normal one, I don't care how I would pay the remaining amount of bond kung magrereseign ako "someday" hahaha... uncertain pa pala. Who knows? I might love my job talking and blabbering. Basta, I just think that everyday is a different day. I just think that God designed different situations for each day since He wants me to learn something from it. Sometimes, when I pray, I complained much from God why would He let me feel hard this way and questioning Him if there is another way to make things more bearable. I remember Jesus' prayer when He prayed in the Garden of Gethsemane asking from His father if there is an easier way to save mankind from sin. I just thought that my dilemma is nothing compared to his'. Well, thinking about this sometimes I feel quite lucky. I have my own money, and can freely make my choices in life and most of all I'm alive! Well, that's somethings more I can thank for. Life goes on for Andy ...

Sunday, June 06, 2004

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Hopeless...



Everyone wants to have a job right? When I was jobless, I imagined myself of the day when I will be excited to go to the office everyday and receive my first salary - and be able to enjoy the fruits of my labor. So much for dreams ... I work in a call center. I have shifting schedules which were changed in an irregular manner. I talk a lot over the phone... clients thank and sometimes praise me I helped them and worst INSULT me when you can't provide them help. The call center environment is also superficial ... everyone's pretending they are enjoying everything while they are not ... it is a culture of yelling upon pressing the mute button, mundane talks, fuming cigarettes everywhere but I know in their hearts - they are tired soulless souls at the end of the day, wishing everyday is a REST day - hmmm... speaking of rest day, call centers also require you to work on your rest days too, yeah I know they will pay you double but money is nothing compared to a good day's rest. What I do in the call center will not match to the money they are paying me ... I am a bad boy ... I don't go to the office if I feel not to, I don't do overtime or work on rest day and maybe do this until the day they will summon me and tell me that they I could no longer be an asset to the company. At first, I was positive about this, I think it looked cool speaking English like Americans with the twang, and with those cool headsets like you see in Globe or SMART advertisements. But when you get a hold of it for quite some time everything seems routinary, boring, tiring and draining. I don't want to go back in my station anymore. I dread the whole day staring in front of the monitor. I'm tired of asking questions from my team leader if I don't know the answers to the problem. You see, I'm a person who is SUPPOSED to know everything and that's the issue. Maybe, my personality is not really suited for working in a call center. I'm quite shocked why my trainers let me pass the training. At this point I don't know what to do, taking a step back would lead me to a world of unemployment again. It's hard to find a job but when you find the job, all the same you will not be happy if you are not inclined to it. A friend recently e-mailed me about being happy with your job but I don't think I can do that. However, I know there is God who watched over me and I know He is in control of everything ... all I can do is TRUST, pray and wait ... tha's all.

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

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World Without Borders



Patricia Evangelista, a 19-year-old, Mass Communications sophomore of
University of the Philippines (UP)-Diliman, did the country
proud Friday night by besting 59 other student contestants from 37
countries in the 2004 International Public Speaking competition
conducted by the English Speaking Union (ESU) in London.

She triumphed over a field of exactly 60 speakers from all over the
English-speaking world, including the United States, United Kingdom and
Australia, reported Maranan.

The board of judges' decision was unanimous, according to contest
chairman Brian Hanharan of the British Broadcasting Corp. (BBC).

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When I was little, I wanted what many Filipino children all over the
country wanted. I wanted to be blond, blue-eyed, and white.

I thought -- if I just wished hard enough and was good enough, I'd wake
up on Christmas morning with snow outside my window and
freckles across my nose!

More than four centuries under western domination does that to you. I
have sixteen cousins. In a couple of years, there will just
be five of us left in the Philippines, the rest will have gone abroad
in search of "greener pastures." It's not just an anomaly;
it's a trend; the Filipino diaspora. Today, about eight million
Filipinos are scattered around the world. There are those who
disapprove of Filipinos who choose to leave. I used to. Maybe this is a
natural reaction of someone who was left behind, smiling
for family pictures that get emptier with each succeeding year.
Desertion, I called it. My country is a land that has
perpetually fought for the freedom to be itself. Our heroes offered
their lives in the struggle against the Spanish, the Japanese,
the Americans. To pack up and deny that identity is tantamount to
spitting on that sacrifice.

Or is it? I don't think so, not anymore. True, there is no denying this
phenomenon, aided by the fact that what was once the other side of the
world is now a twelve-hour plane ride away. But this is a
borderless world, where no individual can claim to be purely from where
he is now. My mother is of Chinese descent, my father is a
quarter Spanish, and I call myself a pure Filipino-a hybrid of sorts
resulting from a combination of cultures.

Each square mile anywhere in the world is made up of people of
different ethnicities, with national identities and individual
personalities. Because of this, each square mile is already a microcosm
of the world. In as much as this blessed spot that is
England is the world, so is my neighborhood back home.

Seen this way, the Filipino Diaspora, or any sort of dispersal of
populations, is not as ominous as so many claim. It must be understood.
I come from a Third World country, one that is still
trying mightily to get back on its feet after many years of
dictatorship. But we shall make it, given more time. Especially now,
when we have thousands of eager young minds who graduate from college
every year. They have skills. They need jobs. We cannot
absorb them all.

A borderless world presents a bigger opportunity, yet one that is not
so much abandonment but an extension of identity. Even as we
take, we give back. We are the 40,000 skilled nurses who support

the UK's National Health Service. We are the quarter-of-a-million
seafarers manning most of the world's commercial ships. We
are your software engineers in Ireland, your construction workers

in the Middle East, your doctors and caregivers in North America, and,
your musical artists in London's West End. Nationalism
isn't bound by time or place. People from other nations migrate to
create new nations, yet still remain essentially who they are.
British society is itself an example of a multi-cultural nation, a
melting pot of races, religions, arts and cultures. We are,
indeed, in a borderless world!

Leaving sometimes isn't a matter of choice. It's coming back that is.
The Hobbits of the shire travelled all over Middle-Earth,
but they chose to come home, richer in every sense of the word. We call
people like these balikbayans or the 'returnees' -- those
who followed their dream, yet choose to return and share their mature
talents and good fortune.

In a few years, I may take advantage of whatever opportunities come my
way. But I will come home. A borderless world doesn't
preclude the idea of a home. I'm a Filipino, and I'll always be one. It
isn't about just geography; it isn't about boundaries.
It's about giving back to the country that shaped me.

And that's going to be more important to me than seeing snow outside my
windows on a bright Christmas morning.

Mabuhay and Thank you.

Monday, May 10, 2004

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Edward Heavrin!



Edward Heavrin

There's this one guy in Josh Groban's forum and introduced himself as Edward Heavrin. He said he is a huge Josh fan, is a singer himself of the same genre Josh is into. He provided a link into his website and as I navigated through the pages, I was brought into the music page where I got to listen to his sample audio clip entitled "To the Light". I listened intently to the entire 1:59 minute clip and I couldn't help myself to be mesmerized by his voice! It's like hearing another Josh Groban with slightly different tune. All I can say is, this guy has a long way to go and I wouldn't miss buying his CD when it comes out in the market.

Visit Edward Heavrin's official site:
www.edwardheavrin.com


Tuesday, May 04, 2004

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Point of Nowhere



Such were some moments in your life which were unexplainable. For no reason at all, I am. I'm down. It started last week. I was contemplating over my inadequacies in responding to actual live calls (which I should not be) until the last actual live call. I was living in fear and in shame (on my own which should not be) about not being to find fulfillment in what I do. I was taught to do things near perfectly. I know I'm aware that there were times I could not achieve positive results. That's fine with me but maybe I'm just an overservile person and I'm well aware of what people will say when I do something wrong. I pray to God for this negative thinking to pass away. I miss my family. I wish I could be with them.

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

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Information Overload



Starting last Friday, we've been bombarded with lots of information from the Technical Training. Hopefully, Glutaphos can do something with my brain memory. Today we have an online exam with PC Troubleshooting and Network Essentials. I memorized a lot of acronyms, and IEEE standards, y'know the Data Comm. stuff we ECE have in college. It feels like reviewing for the Board Exam again but it's okay. I only got 13 out of 25 and none of the ones I studied came out. What a pity! One of our trainers said it's fairly a good score. Importantly we have to do good in the Call Sims. and in handling actual live calls. After the exam we have our technical training continues with lots of stuff about routers of different models and function. I think I can't handle the information but I'm positive I'll learn more in time. The laboratory was fun. It's like the real thing unlike the labs I used to have in college. I'm doing them just for the grades but now I'm doing it cuz I really wanna learn. At the end of the day, I and my batchmates felt tired trying to figure out the functions and how to's and speaking English (Usually we resorted in speaking Tagalog again when we get tired). Fortunately, it's Blas birthday (Happy Birthday, pare! and thanks pala). He gave us a treat at "Something Fishy". What a good day to end!

Saturday, April 17, 2004

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Betty bought a bit of better butter



Hi, everyone. I was not able to write my thoughts lately because my training at Link2Support started last Monday. I have to balance my time between training, reviewing, doing my household chores, and the like. Well, for now I want to share my training experience. It was real FUN! I tell you, the sessions are very helpful.

Last Monday, we have the English Language Proficiency. As I entered the training room, I saw a big sign, that, if rephrased would say, "You have to speak English always!". I was nervous because I'm not really good in speaking English. I stuttered all the time when I try to speak. Anyway, our trainor came. He is an American and he greeted us with a very enthusiastic American tone. He let us perform many exercises like introducing ourselves, talk with our fellow batchmates and all I did was blah blah blah ... chuva choo choo ... as long as it is in English. The penalty for speaking Tagalog is to sing at the end of the day. Several of my batchmates did speak Tagalog expressions lucky for me I haven't spoke a Tagalog word in the entire duration of the tarining (since I speak Visaya every time I slipped! Hehehe). There was joking and kidding while the session is going on. I did not feel like I'm in a usual college classroom setting. It was more like a workshop and I was having fun. My fear of committing mistakes was diminished since all of us commit mistakes and we wished to be corrected. Sometimes you let your guard down and expose your weakness. In that way, you don't have to pretend that you are good and there is learning. Doncha, agree?

Well, after two days of ELP, we have the AAT or the American Accent Training. We were told to bring lots of water since we will be talking the whole day. Within the training days, this one is my favorite since we're learning how to speak like "Ae-me-ri-kns". We have lots of drills and we were always reminded of the "Advil" advertisement. Remember that a lady corrected her friend in the pronunciation of Advil is "Aed-vil" and not "Ad-vil"?

Oh, by the way there's this one time that I sang in front. My trainer ask me what me make me stand out among my batch mates and I answered that maybe I'm the only one who can sing a Japanese or an African song. Well, as expected the trainor requested if I would indulge and sing the song myself. My batchmates were cheering so I gave in. I sang "Sohran Bushi", one of the songs I learned while with the Himig Singers and it was the worse performance I did. I was really nervous then.

One of the things I like about the training are my batchmates. We bonded together right from the first day. We were orgiginally ten, one backed out. We do things together, like we buy food at Robinsons together, we eat our lunch at the pantry or at McDonald's together, we share our college experiences during our breaks and we go home together. We even made a pack that we would be the first batch who will all pass in the elimination which was held yesterday and break the record!

The dreaded day, Friday, came. We have this sort of elimination to test us of what we've learned from that last four days. What I rememebered during the exam was I just talked sometimes nonsense things. I have this mindset that when you just talk and talk with the correct grammar and accent, there would be no problem. To tell you honestly, I imagined myself like stupid, well, the heck of it! Who cares? As long as I have something to say, and do as required. My batchmates shared same sentiments too and we waited until afternoon for the results. The afternoon after the elimination, we continued our training but our minds were not into the training but we were very anxious about the results. I was thinking that if I will be eliminated, just like before I'll look for another prospect. I was kinda used with the trend but this time I was positive yet I did not hope that much.

Afternoon came and we were called one by one to the deliberation room. When my turn came, my evaluator told me that I have a soft voice and he asked me to hand my ID. That was it, maybe I was eliminated! He continued and said that I have a neutral accent and I can express myself and that I passed! I really want to jump but all I did was smile. My evaluator returned my ID. I was really happy but not so happy. It was a good feeling nevertheless. I proceeded outside and waited for my other batchmates. To make the story short we were the first batch with the highest passing rate! Unfortunately, one batchmate did not make it. We decided to treat her at Tokyo Tokyo and wished her luck in applying to other companies.

Today, we still have our trainings. There's a lot to study about Data Comm and stuff and we have an exam on Monday. Unfortunately, my Data Comm. background is weak so I have to double my time learning new "strange" stuff. There will be another elimination next week so wish me luck!

Beddy bäd? bidä bedder budder! Get it!? Have a nice day.


Sunday, April 11, 2004

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"One Voice" - the Holy Week Special



I spent the Holy Week alone in my room in Countryside, Pasig. Last Good Friday, I attended the fellowship in Word for the World and woah! I was filled with gladness as people were prasing God and worshipping Him! There was no atmosphere of mourning as the world commonly perceive during that day. For us Christians, the Good Friday was and is still the Best Friday in our lives because Jesus is victorious in fulfilling God's plan and we are eternally grateful for the eternal redemption of our Salvation. I could not help myself imagining what sacrifice Jesus did and no tear or word is enough to thank Him.

Today is Easter Sunday and the world is so busy fuzzing about easter bunnies and easter eggs but for us Christians, this sunday is the Resurrection Sunday. It is the day the Lord Jesus Christ has conquered death and rose among the graves and ascended into glory! It is this day that our faith was made. Just five hours ago, I watched our church's musical cantata entitled, "One Voice". Truly, I have watched many easter cantatas in the past but this one really struck a chord inside me.

"One Voice" tells the story of the two Pharisees, Joseph the pharisee of Arimathea and Nicodemus. Remember the heart verse of John 3:16? It is Nicodemus whom Jesus has spoken these words. The cantata begins with John the Baptist preaching about Lord Jesus' coming and some time later on he baptized Him in the name of the Father and of the Spirit. As Jesus' teachings touched the many lives of the people living at that time, these two pharisees also have different shares of conflict and struggles.
Joseph was a Pharisee who was concerned of abiding the Law of Moses. It was his UTMOST duty to protect it and have the people obey it. He found Jesus' teachings totally blasphemous with respect to the Law and he was with a hard heart that he would get rid of Jesus and his teachings so that the Law will prevail. Little did he know that Jesus was working in his hard heart. Nicodemus, on the other hand, was rather a confused man. He ceratinly did not reject Jesus' teachings but was silently believing Him. However, if he would actively declare his faith in Jesus, his reputation will be tarnished. As the story goes on, Joseph's wife is pressuring him to stand by the Law and live up with his father's standards. Meanwhile, Nicodemus' sister encouraged him to let go of his reputation and follow Jesus. Events happened: Jesus was brought into court, he was crucified and both did nothing. They did not condemn him nor pleaded for his life but they wished that they have done something. In the end, Joseph and Nicodemus found each other in the footsteps of Jesus' followers and they totally let go of what binded them for so long and led free lives to follow Jesus.

We ask ourselves now. What keeps us from totally following Jesus? Is it our Job? Ambitions? Career? Money? Opinions of other people? Our own religions? Beliefs? If we let go of everything and totally focus ourselves to Jesus, we could be free just like Joseph and Nicodemus.

Happy Resurrection Sunday Everyone!

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

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Night of Terror



This is my favorite of all my brother, Aris' drawings. The Night of Terror

Night of Terror

This is the wallpaper version I made.

La Noche Wallpaper


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Finished Moving



Ah! What a great day! I woke up with a rather fresh feeling. Today is my last day of moving all my things from Cavite to Pasig. Last Monday, I brought all my books, yesterday my clothes and just a while ago, I brought my toiletries, kitchenware, etc. Guess, I'm all set! I really like my room. After all the scrubbing I did , removing cobwebs from the corners, changing the incandescent bulb into a eye-blinding, 100-watt fluorescent light bulb, wow It's almost like my room in Davao - which reminds me on how long I'll be able to set foot in that place again? (Sigh! :( ) Anyway, I still have to arrange things this afternoon and fix things like the halayan, the window screen.

Things seem to be falling into place nowadays.

Monday, April 05, 2004

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Overhauling Andy's Undies



My former image host, Titansfan has been down for almost a week now and my blog looks really messy with those little red crosses. However, I recently switched to Photobucket and I hope that its free service will last forever. Much work has to be done since I have to change the URLs of the images to be used. Unfortunately, I haven't saved a hard copy of my banner so I have to use the old style by blogger.

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

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I'm a Cedar Tree



A friend e-mailed me an article about what kind a person is in comparison to a tree. I was born between Feb 9 to 18 so I was a cedar tree. Here's the description:

Cedar Tree (the Confidence) -- of rare strength,
knows how to adapt, likes
& gt; unexpected presents, of good health, not in
the least shy, tends to look
down on others, self-confident, a great speaker,
determined, often impatient
likes to impress others, has many talents,
industrious, healthy optimism,
waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.


Not entirely me, I think.

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Beautiful


Last week, there was a mega-job fair at SM Megamall. Lots of new unemployed graduates swarmed outside the Megamall Hall Trade 3 and waited for the opening of the job fair, which started almost by 11 o' clock (instead of the scheduled 10, Pilipino time talaga!). I applied with various companies such as Photocircuits, Cebu Pacific, Sharp, MSI-Digiland and some call centers as Technical Support Representative. A while ago, before the job fair opening. I called link2support, a call center company to be interviewed by my contact person named Eric. However, Eric was not around so I was interviewed by RA, who answered the phone when I called. The conversation went smoothly even though I gave wrong answers (especially in the technical ones) and to conclude our conversation she scheduled me for an exam on Monday, 1 o' clock PM. Later after that ROHM Apollo called and told me that I'm scheduled for the company orientation on Monday at 9 o' clock. I told them that I was finished with the orientation a month ago but they insisted. With a rather heavy heart, I decided not to go there and instead go for the exam in Link2support.
Monday came and I was feeling a little feverish. I felt I have a sinusitis that hasn't started yet. By 8, I started getting ready ... and to make the story short I arrived at link2support 5 minutes before 1. In just a little while, the HR personnel ushered me and the other applicants to the examination workstation for the online exam. The online exam was divided on 3 categories namely Customer Service, Technical Knowledge and Verbal ability. The verbal ability test was further divided into 3 sub-categories namely Grammar, Conversational English and Spelling. The exam went well and I did best with Spelling with 73.3% while doing quite bad with Grammar with 43.33%. The next exam was the phone interview. This interview was designed to test how I sound in phone. This was my most favorite of all the exams because I have fun imitating the interviewer as she made me to repeat what she's saying. Lastly, was the panel interview. I did bad at first, my ideas were like falling out into place. I apologized to the panel but I'm glad they were considerate. Later on, the interview went smoother and I was a bit enthusiastic. After the interview, I went to the Multi-Purpose Hall and wait for the results. Later, a personnel who introduced himself as Bryan called me and led me to a deserted room. He asked me to sit down and I thought that this would another interview and unfortunately it wasn't. He handed me a paper - a contract about my training which will start in Monday until Apr 23. I was very happy with the news that I didn't take note with what was written in the contract. I read the terms and asked a few questions. After all the talking, he congratulated me and wished me good luck on Monday.
I finally have a training and if I do good, I would get the job as Product Support Representative. Wow! I really praised God because I did not expect this. I thought I would not make it as a candidate for training. I was really happy because after 3 months of searching, I have the job to look forward to and get busy! I called my tatay and nanay and they were happy about the news. They told me to drink vitamins and medicines when the training starts so that I'll be healthy.
When I got back home in Cavite I told my two friends Butch gamay and Dako about the news. They reacted quite different because it means that I have to leave them and move. But they were happy, I guess.
Personally, I find myself in a crossroad. I'm excited yet anxious. Excited because I've got new things to do - a training and a ministry at the church I attend regularly but anxious since I will be exposed to a new world - new people and a new place. I also feel sad since I'll be leaving my friends, that I'll always look forward to chat with every night. But, I think that God allowed all of this so that the events will shape my character. Sometimes, I get very impatient and ask God why and why. I complained a lot but truly God makes all things beautiful in His time.