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Friday, September 30, 2005




Music is in the Soul



Paganini, the great violinist, came out before his audience one day and made the discovery just as they ended their applause that there was something wrong with his violin. He looked at it a second and then saw that it was not his famous and valuable one.

He felt paralyzed for a moment, then turned to his audience and told them there had been some mistake and he did not have his own violin. He stepped back behind the curtain thinking that it was still where he had left it, but discovered that some one had stolen his and left that old second-hand one in its place. He remained back of the curtain a moment, then came out before his audience and said:

"Ladies and Gentlemen: I will show you that the music is not in the instrument, but in the soul." And he played as he had never played before; and out of that second-hand instrument, the music poured forth until the audience was enraptured with enthusiasm and the applause almost lifted the ceiling of the building, because the man had revealed to them that music was not in the machine but in his own soul.

It is your mission, tested and tried one, to walk out on the stage of this world and reveal to all earth and Heaven that the music is not in conditions, not in the things, not in externals, but the music of life is in your own soul.

If peace be in the heart,
The wildest winter storm is full of solemn beauty,
The midnight flash but shows the path of duty,
Each living creature tells some new and joyous story,
The very trees and stones all catch a ray of glory,
If peace be in the heart.

--Charles Francis Richardson

Material from DesertStreams.Org

Wednesday, September 28, 2005




Buddha in 2046



I just had my driving lessons with Ptr. Banug. This is only my 2nd day in driving but I learned so much. Today, we traveled as far as Buda going in an average of 40 kph. Driving is much better now compared to what I have in driving school 3 years ago. It was fun though my right foot hurts a little hanging while pressing the accelerator. We had a good weather today until we stopped at Calinan to have lunch then we decided to go hippy tripping to Buda. It was okay then until the roads get zigzaggy, uphill and downhill. That's when I decided that we go back to downtown.

2056
2046


Yesterday, I watched 2046. Although I've been told that it's a good movie, I never watched it in the cinema. Many said that 2046 is was year, other versions said it was a room, others said it was a place. All of them are partially correct. 2046, is a year in the distant future, a place where everyone wants to go. Why would everyone wants to go there? It is said that people go there to recapture lost memories and when they get there they would never come back. Only one person decided to go back, his name is Mr. Chow (Tony Leung) and the story revolves around him. 2046 is an alter version somehow of Mr. Chow's life. He wrote the story, with people going to 2046 riding in a mysterious train, whose cabin attendants are androids. He thought he was writing about the future, in fact he writes about his past. As a writer in HongKong in the 60's, Mr. Chow goes back to HongKong to forget about his sad recent affair with Shu Lizhen (Maggie Cheung). While in HongKong, he met several women of his past, including a showgirl whose boyfriend stabbed her in room 2046 of her hotel and a paid girl (Zhang Ziyi), who later occupied that room, and his landlord's daughter. Wishing that he could recapture the happy moments with these women, he just can't. Many have been hurt, may have been involved, many were manipulated and bringing them back isn't worth it. Just to cherish one happy moment and live it just for a moment, he just can't. These women too, longed for those moments with him, but they just can't. And so they lived their lives in 2046, in wishful dreaming, that somehow, somewhere in their lives, they have been happy just to forget the loneliness they have in the present. And these charcaters appeared in Mr. Chow's novel, 2046 with the exactness of purpose and of mind. But Mr. Chow decides to leave 2046 because he knows there's nothing in the past worth living in the present.

Monday, September 26, 2005




Plain Things



What is really happening to Andy's day-to-day life? As you see, aside from thinking too much about love, life, the nature of evil and other mysteries, I'm just a plain bloke roaming around the city in my polo and maong short pants, surfing the internet, responding to friends in e-groups, looking out for friendster updates, applying at jobstreet, watch movies, shoot the ball... or just think for a while hoping to gain inspiration for a new song or what I will create in Photoshop.


Corinthians Ciruit

Corinthian's Circuit activity - smile daw si Lorelove o!


What has been the most significant in my almost 2-month jobless situation here in Davao is my involvement with the church. I have been leading the praise and worship for several Sundays now and it has been the most wonderful and fulfilling project I have done. Maybe, this has been the very very "gift" God must have given me. So to improve my, uh, praise and worship leading skills, during my free time (which is almost all the time) I watch videos of Hillsongs or Don Moen and observe their ways how they lead people in worship. I'm very busy in my career these days! I'm starting to "accidentally" been helping the youth group in church to start "once again. We just came from a circuit fellowship (it was last Sunday) that we had a meeting on what the officers will do regarding youth activities. We came with an information sheet to gather information quantitatively and from it, the officers will plan in forming activities based on that information sheet.

Well, I guess that's all. Tomorrow I'll be having a refresher course in driving.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005




My Greatest Love Is You


My heart is filled singing this song:

Every new day

Your glory unfolds

Filling my eyes

With Your treasures untold

The beauty of holiness

Brings worship anew

My greatest love is You


Call me deeper

Into Your grace

The river that flows

From the Holy Place

Wash over me

Cleansing me through

My greatest love is You



Friday, September 16, 2005




Befriend a Lone Soul



As I opened my eyes this morning, I felt a heavy feeling inside my heart. I felt lonely and it seems tiring even to think what I will do today. The enemy has been targeting my heart everyday, every morning as I wake up with feelings of hopelessness and loneliness. As I was writing this entry, I still feel quite empty but thanks to the word of God that greeted me as I read my Daily Bread. For many nights before going to sleep, I always pray to God to give me some friends. I have been struggling greatly, personally without any physical friends – just some soul where I can freely relate. Everyday, I loiter around the city alone, entertaining myself by watching movies, listening to Christian music or surfing the internet, watching people pass by with their peers, their spouses, parents and children or close friends. I felt envious and lonely at the thought. Sometimes, I do wish that my Manila friends were only here or somehow I do wish that I can go back and spend with my friends there in Manila. Sometimes I wonder why God let me be in this place where He wants me to suffer internally. But He has His reasons.

Anyway, I don’t want you to finish reading feeling bombarded with my loneliness. Today’s word in Daily Bread entitled, “How To Be A Friend” and I smiled after reading this. The text was found in Proverbs 18:24,


”A man who has friends must himself be friendly”.


Many people outside need friends too… and it brought me to my self-centeredness. Though I, as most of us are, have some needs to be cherished by a friend but when we are so absorbed with this thought, we tend to focus only to ourselves instead of extending ourselves and befriend people especially strangers. Yeah, why I haven’t thought of that? But then I ask God, “Lord, I am not friendly. I’m shy and find myself tongue-tied talking with people let alone a stranger.” These people feel like us too, Dave Branon continues to say, “These people may not think they fit in, or they may be facing turmoil that makes them feel all alone.” Yeah, we feel that way too, right? "Sometimes all we need to do is extend a hand, offer a smile, or speak a word of encouragement." Again we ask, how can I offer a smile or speak a word of encouragement if I, myself need these things too. That’s when we ask God to give us these needs. Trust Him that He will fill these needs and make our hearts overflowing with joy drowning the loneliness within. Pray, that you can bless other people to by being friends with them. How could I forget? Just last Sunday, I dedicated myself to God to be a blessing unto others. I am overflowing with blessings and I got to give it away! God, it is our prayer to make us a blessing unto people who need Your love that they themselves be blessed.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005




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Thursday, September 08, 2005




Seabiscuit and The Rookie



I was thinking of making a more appropriate title for this entry but I couldn't think one so I titled this entry about the what today's article is all about - two movies I've recently watched and left me never the same after I watched these two films - Seabiscuit and The Rookie.

Seabiscuit, a heart warming story set during America's Great Depression. The movie starts with the individual lives of 4 characters... Jeff Bridges who played a role of a car inventor, who made millions because of this, whose son died from an accident from a car he himself built; Chris Cooper who played the role of a white-washed, horse whisperer, a cowboy who had his time; Tobey Maguire as Red, a homeless jockey, whose parents had given him away cause they can't afford to raise him anymore and Seabiscuit, a small horse who everyone thinks is stubborn and a weakling. These four distinct beings met given the circumstance where horse racing is the "in" thing during the Great Depression. It's marvelous how the qualities - both good and bad intertwined and changed themselves to better beings. Jeff Bridges financed Seabiscuit's training hiring Chris Cooper to do the job cause he's the best horse whisperer around. Chris Cooper saw Tobey Maguire's amazing affinity with horses. Seabiscuit, though small, can fly high cause he's got a jockey that loves him. Watching this movie, I realized that our pasts don't define us on what we want to be. I believe that God has given us a choice to live our lives to change into better people, serving for the common good.

This morning, I watched The Rookie starring Dennis Quaid whose dreams of becoming a professional baseball player are thwarted when he was young. Moving constantly from place to place and his father's discouragement made him lose hope and live as he thought to live. Now he is a grown up man teaching science and coaching the school's baseball team. He helped them win but he felt a pressing need to fulfill his dreams of being a baseball pitcher. His throwing speed of 98 mi/h can get him to the major league but he had inner demons to fight with. So he worked it through and made it up to the major league despite his age. What God has planted in your heart will never be taken away. Discouragements may be hurled at you even from your own family but trust God cause it is from Him these dreams originate.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005




Love Actually



Again, I was at home waiting for something wonderful, or a miracle to come, to get me off my seat and wander fly away... I have daydreamed about those moments, thinking that if the circumstances are right or if I have the power I would... but God has it and all I can say is to say, "Yes sir!" to Him.


The Eye of God
The Eye of God nebula: One of this universe's
amazing sights and God created it!



Anyway, I have been reading a lot of books and watching a lot of movies. I recently read Bo Sanchez's "Thank God He's The Boss"...I can't help to laugh at this man's humor (especially when it comes about himself) but in the end of those short articles of his, it left me pondering of God's goodness, corrections, leadings in our lives and on the many instances that He never left us or abandoned us. Last morning, my bro and I went to Video City to rent some CDs and one of them was Dodgeball. When we watched it, Grabe, it's so funny. I recommend you watch it. Ben Stiller is really a genius with these kind of slapsticky movies. A while ago, I watched again, "Love Actually"... one of my favorite movies and I realized again how amazing what loves does. To those of you who watched it... you may sigh that Laura Linney cancelled her physical love affair with Carl to attend to her sick, mentally-deranged brother. I mean, what love does are not all wonderful experiences. Sacrifice is painful but if it's good in the long run... hmmm. I'm kind of relating my personal experiences in here. Anyway, I'm off again, applying for new jobs in the internet, waiting and praying... but I'd like to learn to play keyboards at the moment.

Friday, September 02, 2005




Blessings from the Past



I woke up, early in the morning. It was 6:30 AM and I felt extremely lonely. For these past days, I was feeling very low: with no person to talk to, no other soul who can seem to help with my concerns. Everyday, I am facing another day with nothing to look forward. God must have neglected me or He must’ve refused to hear my prayers… but then again I tanked God for giving me another day to live, another day to experience His goodness, another day to experience Him in unexpected and profound ways.

I was in the downtown yesterday, chatting, finding comfort from strangers online. When I logged out, feeling so empty, I cried out to God why would He let me feel as lonely as this? I felt useless and unimportant, not worth the attention or object of interest. I was thinking… my face would look blank from the outside … and I got home. After I changed into my house clothes, the drawer in our room caught my attention. I opened it and as expected it contained the same usual stuff I kept years ago: old sketches, beadle slips, stickers, my brother’s comic books and …

At the bottom part of the drawer contained envelopes … letters from friends from high school and college. I carefully leafed every piece of paper it contained. As I was reading the series of letters from Ate Patche, I can’t help but to feel nostalgic: our sharings during our early years in college, our adjustment from high school to college, the new friends, the new culture, the loneliness of being far away from home. I came across a very small card from my lady classmates who gave it to me on the day of high school graduation. They are notes of appreciation, telling me how I was to them – for being there when they needed help especially with difficult subjects like Mathematics, for being a Sailormoon fanatic (I thought I had been a freak obsessively patronizing that animé.) and for being a guy who’s entirely different from other guys and because of that they like me. As I leaf from page to page, I came across with certain memorabilia from the closest lady friend I have, Mayang. I gazed at the antique, 1 peso coin and her Science club ID she gave many years ago and I was really delighted at her thoughtfulness. I carefully read her small letters which contained comic messages and the poems she made for me, telling me how special I was to her. I even had the lyrics of the song she composed for our friend Mae. It was the song we sang during Mae’s debut. Along with these letters are many notes from other people whom I haven’t had the slightest idea that I (somehow) mean to them.

After reading these letters, I realized that I’m not useless, that I made sense in other lives as well. I praise God for ministering to me through these letters and because of that I’m very sure that God has always thought of me. Though my heart has longed for a specific way to redeem itself, God revealed other ways for my heart’s need to be fulfilled the same. During those times, I received those letters, I might have not appreciated them fully but God knows He will use it for me now. Thank you God for making me how special I am to you. Continue to make me a blessing unto others.