Sin and Grace

Does God hear?
Living like a dead-beaten man
Sin, sinned, sinning
I'm eating it like a daily bread
Unsatisfied, still wanting for more
Lustful and glutton

Spiralling in an endless pit
How should I meet my needs
Of love and attention?
Should I indulge in fantasy?
Be absorbed in my destructive adventures

Does God still hear?
Or is it I who just who refused to listen
To His promptings to my heart
Wooing to win me back
Like a lover who betrays
My soul wouldn't want every inch of Him

Here I am sitting
Listening to the beating of my heart
Does it still feel love for God
Or does it feel unrelenting avoidance
When was the last time
That I fell head over heels with God?
Like a distant memory, I barely remember.

Does God remember every cry of my heart?
Of the lonely nights when I was faithful
Does God would now like to remember?
Now that I repeatedly betray Him
I felt dirty in coming to You
You are Holy and I felt like mud
I'd rather stay away and try to forget You.

I come to you and you welcomed me
Disgrace marked my tattered clothes
Yet you robed me magnificently
With grace so bright and costly
Undeserving yet You welcomed me
You were not surprised of my betrayal
You welcomed me, you welcomed me...

Made my heart white as snow
You grace washed the mud away
You are the lover of my soul
I am your beloved, yet you love me just as I am
Restored the romance betweek You and me