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Seabiscuit and The Rookie


I was thinking of making a more appropriate title for this entry but I couldn't think one so I titled this entry about the what today's article is all about - two movies I've recently watched and left me never the same after I watched these two films - Seabiscuit and The Rookie.

Seabiscuit, a heart warming story set during America's Great Depression. The movie starts with the individual lives of 4 characters... Jeff Bridges who played a role of a car inventor, who made millions because of this, whose son died from an accident from a car he himself built; Chris Cooper who played the role of a white-washed, horse whisperer, a cowboy who had his time; Tobey Maguire as Red, a homeless jockey, whose parents had given him away cause they can't afford to raise him anymore and Seabiscuit, a small horse who everyone thinks is stubborn and a weakling. These four distinct beings met given the circumstance where horse racing is the "in" thing during the Great Depression. It's marvelous how the qualities - both good and bad intertwined and changed themselves to better beings. Jeff Bridges financed Seabiscuit's training hiring Chris Cooper to do the job cause he's the best horse whisperer around. Chris Cooper saw Tobey Maguire's amazing affinity with horses. Seabiscuit, though small, can fly high cause he's got a jockey that loves him. Watching this movie, I realized that our pasts don't define us on what we want to be. I believe that God has given us a choice to live our lives to change into better people, serving for the common good.

This morning, I watched The Rookie starring Dennis Quaid whose dreams of becoming a professional baseball player are thwarted when he was young. Moving constantly from place to place and his father's discouragement made him lose hope and live as he thought to live. Now he is a grown up man teaching science and coaching the school's baseball team. He helped them win but he felt a pressing need to fulfill his dreams of being a baseball pitcher. His throwing speed of 98 mi/h can get him to the major league but he had inner demons to fight with. So he worked it through and made it up to the major league despite his age. What God has planted in your heart will never be taken away. Discouragements may be hurled at you even from your own family but trust God cause it is from Him these dreams originate.

Love Actually


Again, I was at home waiting for something wonderful, or a miracle to come, to get me off my seat and wander fly away... I have daydreamed about those moments, thinking that if the circumstances are right or if I have the power I would... but God has it and all I can say is to say, "Yes sir!" to Him.



The Eye of God nebula: One of this universe's
amazing sights and God created it!



Anyway, I have been reading a lot of books and watching a lot of movies. I recently read Bo Sanchez's "Thank God He's The Boss"...I can't help to laugh at this man's humor (especially when it comes about himself) but in the end of those short articles of his, it left me pondering of God's goodness, corrections, leadings in our lives and on the many instances that He never left us or abandoned us. Last morning, my bro and I went to Video City to rent some CDs and one of them was Dodgeball. When we watched it, Grabe, it's so funny. I recommend you watch it. Ben Stiller is really a genius with these kind of slapsticky movies. A while ago, I watched again, "Love Actually"... one of my favorite movies and I realized again how amazing what loves does. To those of you who watched it... you may sigh that Laura Linney cancelled her physical love affair with Carl to attend to her sick, mentally-deranged brother. I mean, what love does are not all wonderful experiences. Sacrifice is painful but if it's good in the long run... hmmm. I'm kind of relating my personal experiences in here. Anyway, I'm off again, applying for new jobs in the internet, waiting and praying... but I'd like to learn to play keyboards at the moment.

Blessings from the Past


I woke up, early in the morning. It was 6:30 AM and I felt extremely lonely. For these past days, I was feeling very low: with no person to talk to, no other soul who can seem to help with my concerns. Everyday, I am facing another day with nothing to look forward. God must have neglected me or He must’ve refused to hear my prayers… but then again I tanked God for giving me another day to live, another day to experience His goodness, another day to experience Him in unexpected and profound ways.

I was in the downtown yesterday, chatting, finding comfort from strangers online. When I logged out, feeling so empty, I cried out to God why would He let me feel as lonely as this? I felt useless and unimportant, not worth the attention or object of interest. I was thinking… my face would look blank from the outside … and I got home. After I changed into my house clothes, the drawer in our room caught my attention. I opened it and as expected it contained the same usual stuff I kept years ago: old sketches, beadle slips, stickers, my brother’s comic books and …

At the bottom part of the drawer contained envelopes … letters from friends from high school and college. I carefully leafed every piece of paper it contained. As I was reading the series of letters from Ate Patche, I can’t help but to feel nostalgic: our sharings during our early years in college, our adjustment from high school to college, the new friends, the new culture, the loneliness of being far away from home. I came across a very small card from my lady classmates who gave it to me on the day of high school graduation. They are notes of appreciation, telling me how I was to them – for being there when they needed help especially with difficult subjects like Mathematics, for being a Sailormoon fanatic (I thought I had been a freak obsessively patronizing that animé.) and for being a guy who’s entirely different from other guys and because of that they like me. As I leaf from page to page, I came across with certain memorabilia from the closest lady friend I have, Mayang. I gazed at the antique, 1 peso coin and her Science club ID she gave many years ago and I was really delighted at her thoughtfulness. I carefully read her small letters which contained comic messages and the poems she made for me, telling me how special I was to her. I even had the lyrics of the song she composed for our friend Mae. It was the song we sang during Mae’s debut. Along with these letters are many notes from other people whom I haven’t had the slightest idea that I (somehow) mean to them.

After reading these letters, I realized that I’m not useless, that I made sense in other lives as well. I praise God for ministering to me through these letters and because of that I’m very sure that God has always thought of me. Though my heart has longed for a specific way to redeem itself, God revealed other ways for my heart’s need to be fulfilled the same. During those times, I received those letters, I might have not appreciated them fully but God knows He will use it for me now. Thank you God for making me how special I am to you. Continue to make me a blessing unto others.

My 1st Day In My Spiritual Career


I led the Praise and Worship in our church this morning. That's all.

I have led P & Ws before but this one is different. I remembered a few months ago when I was really crying, my heart full of burden that I really want to serve Him through music and Praise God! I have my first job today and it was great!!! Thanks to God! Nothing could make me trade than the joy it brings to my heart and the joy other people felt cause they are blessed. Before the P & W, I was really nervous and silently I prayed to God to work in me... I may not have the best lines but I trust God would give me the words to lead God's people. I'm looking forward to next P & W sessions.